Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Why I hate Christmas

Foremost it is all about spending extravagantly on gifts that probably most people won't value or won't like at all. There are loads of money being wasted in getting things that nobody wants and nobody cares for. Not even the closest friends nor family members truly know what others like or want sometimes.

I hate the runnings to the shopping malls, I hate mad crowds looking to buy that last minute gift that they forgot to buy. Christmas = consumer madness.

I hate people who start shopping for xmas almost one year before.

I hate the fact that people only think about family, friendship, unity, charity, etc, in one specific date and not everyday. Those kind of feelings should be carried in your heart all year long.

I hate to get calls or sms from people who don't give a sh*t about me throughout the year, but as it is politically correct, do it anyway in this holiday time and wish me merry xmas and peace to the world and all that crap.

I hate to receive those template sms, where one serves all, with a stupid random message and a little ascii tree.

If there was a time when I ever liked Christmas? Yes, up until I was like 10 years old.







Before you buy any gifts, I strongly recommend you to read this book by

Joel Waldfogel, entitled "Scroogenomics: Why You Shouldn't Buy Presents
for the Holidays"





I clearly remember one random day, probably a couple of years ago, when I went to the pharmacy to get some medicines for myself and I noticed an old man next to me at the counter.

He had to buy so many medicines and had so little money to spend , due to unfairly low welfares, that he decided to leave more than half the products behind, even with the pharmacist insistently telling him it was important not to stop that medication.

Without wanting to be rude or self-important, I approached the old man (afraid of sounding disrespectful) and asked if he would allow me to pay for his medicines, the ones he was not going to buy. And I did. He felt overwhelmed and I felt good for being able to help someone. I will never forget that moment and that action.

That was a truly Christmas day for both of us.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Tribute to Adrift

Adrift, my dear friend,

I was just listening to a song from a band called The Crüxshadows and I would like to dedicate their song "Eye of the Storm" to you. I know it's pretty long but pay attention to the lyrics carefully. :)


The trials you now are facing
They are not greater than your will
For there is nothing under heaven
You cannot overcome

See the door that lies before you
And know this too shall pass
The confrontation of your fears
In strength drawn from the past
Where the silent voices whisper
Find the course that is your own
And however great the obstacle
You will never be alone

For I have watched the path of angels
And I have heard the heavens roar
There is strife within the tempest
But there is calm in the eye of the storm

In fragments of an instant
The chaos has returned
And all that was left to sentiment
Beneath the banner burned

And as that voice was slow receded
Into echoes, memory
My doubts were re-ignited
And fear awakened from its sleep

I believe in what I fight for
And I have paid for it with pain
I am here because my contributions
May help turn this fate away

And all who stood by and did nothing
Who are they to criticize?
The sacrifices of others
Our blood has bought their lives
This is the moment of truth
At the point of no return
Place faith in your convictions
As the boundaries start to blur

There is no love untouched by hate
No unity without discord
There is no courage without fear
There is no peace without a war
There is no wisdom without regret
No admiration without scorn

There is strife within the tempest
But there is calm in the eye of the storm

The pages of our history
Are written by the hand
With eyes and ears and prejudice
Too far removed to understand

And so the heroes of the ages
Are stripped of honesty and love
To make them seem less noble
And hide what we can become

If you find the courage within you
To face the path ahead
It matters not the outcome
If what you will gain instead
Is a heart deepened in the knowing
That experience carves the soul
And the very thing that empties you
Shall surely make you whole

Where the silent voices whisper
Find the course that is your own
And however great the obstacle
You will never be alone

For I have watched the path of angels
And I have heard the heavens roar
There is strife within the tempest
But calm in the eye of the storm...


Beautiful lyrics don't you think? I wish you can find some hope in them.
I'll send you the song so that you can listen to it while you read it as well. :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

Don't want to sleep

I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want it to be tomorrow. :(

The weekend has swiftly faded away once again and I have to go back to the real and ugly reality of another working week...
I hate Mondays *sighs* and Tuesdays and Wednesdays and Thursdays!! I only start to feel alive again on Fridays.

Don't want to fall asleep, maybe if I don't tomorrow never comes...


Sunday, December 06, 2009

Woke up feeling good

Today I woke up feeling good.

A goods night's out can be better than a good night of sleep. ;)

This morning (cof cof afternoon ) my boyfriend woke me up and I instantly looked at the watch which showed 6 o'clock. And I remember thinking: "hmm I wonder if it's 6 am or 6 pm?... oh wait, it has to be 6 pm because at 6 am I was still at the club dancing." :D

I had a very lousy week and was really in need of a decompression during the weekend. Finally Saturday came and I could have fun without thinking of anything else. Sometimes it's good not to think, just feel... just enjoy being with great people who can really understand and read your mind, without criticism nor judgement.

Lately I've been surprised in a good way by some people.

I've grown a little stronger today and that feels really good. :)

Friday, November 27, 2009

Vampires




Saturday, November 21, 2009

Lost

My head aches like hell, it is full and empty of thoughts at the same time.

Sometimes I don't want to be me. Sometimes I don't even want to exist. I don't want to think. I just want to feel numb... to stop this painful sensation.


What is wrong with me? I'm tired and I want control of my life back, cause I feel like I'm losing it...




Can anyone see my pain?


Wednesday, July 16, 2008

MMORPG

Beginning of last year only I was introduced to MMORPG's (Massively Multiplayer Online Role-Playing Games) with the launch of the game Lord of the Rings Online.
Since then I've become slightly addicted to this kind of games... :P

I'm currently playing 2 games simultaneously.

Lord of the Rings Online

EU Server:
Snowbourn

Characters:
Luriel, Guardian (50)
Luriwen, Lore-master (50)
Lurieth, Hunter (36)

www.lotro-europe.com



Age of Conan

EU Server:
Dagon

Characters:
Sacrifice, Demonologist (8)
Bloodmoon, Necromancer (9)


www.ageofconan.com




Say hello if you spot me there! ;-)